If one more person asks about my resolutions I’m going to bark at the moon!

There is no way in this entire reality I would be dumb enough to set myself up for failure, there are days I can’t even struggle through the laundry let alone incorporate some work out schedule, or think for one second I could quit smoking with ease. Why on earth would I promise myself and the world I could, only to feel like a miserable failure?

I make resolutions every darn day, not to be online too long, make sure I get in extra book or quiet time with the kids, cut down the TV, no cookies before lunch, you get the drift. I promise myself I’ll craft more, and worry less, only to worry about getting the time to craft.

I’m way too over the top type A for this nonsense. Seriously.

All I do know is that we’re gonna really work hard to sock away money this year. One year we did, we lived in Arizona, had about 10 months to move cross country and put down a hefty down on a house, and somehow in that time we paid not only for our own wedding, had a Christmas a flood, a move before the move and still socked away a little over 15 grand. I know we can do it again.

We do want out of here, we do want to move as soon as the housing market let’s us sell and not lose every dime we put in, our area is hit really hard right now, and the city itself is peddling backwards and losing people who even want to live here.

In the meantime we save, save, save. Sock it away in our Schwab  account, and pretend it doesn’t exist, maybe that will at least cover the taxes we’ll owe in Feb. I ache for the days of money back, even with 2 kids we’re paying in thousands a year. Being a grown up can really be very un fun!

There’s alot I want to do in the next few years, with my teenage daughter back in the mix, there will be some help towards driving expenses, and a trip or two in the future. This house still needs alot of work done. I’d like to have a family vacation in the next few years, nothing wild or over the top, just a nice resort or something. But we’ll see.

My wish for the New Year, is that we catch up and can breathe some, instead of running in our rat wheel, staying ion one place. Being middle class is hard, it kinda sticks you there unless you break out of the box, and leap in income. Sure, you have what you need, and sure sometimes you even get what you want, but the trade off is a constant feeling of one thing could ruin it all, one missed life insurance payment, or health insurance payment, one financial nightmare away from nothing.

This year, I just want to see the light at the end of the tunnel.